The Uncontrollable Tension of My Mind

It's in my blog, it's in my brain. The uncontrollable tension of my mind. I create it. A couple cups of coffee. An empty stomach. The perfect formula for disaster. I know it but I repeat it over and over again. Just for the Buzz. Am I an addict? Possably for the buzz of controlled chaos. Is it sick?... My stomach knows it is... What's funny is somehow I think I'm one in a billion experiencing this cycle of abuse and I'm not. F*ck it, and pour me another cup.